Every expectation I have right now is being thwarted!  I know that in life, we don’t always get what we want.  We do sometimes, but it is also common to be thwarted. Right now, it seems I am being thwarted everywhere, every time!  What is going on???  Luck predicts 50/50!

When I can’t take a step in any direction, the only option is to be fully still and present in the moment and see what shows up.  It takes a completely different view of reality and the process and purpose of life to be still. Our culture says that life is based on cause and effect.  We have to act to cause something in order to receive something.  We are told that if we just stop, life stops.  So what will I see from stopping?

My deep belief is that each moment is sacred.   I see that I am being asked to live from this truth.   I see that in order to do this, I have to stand apart from cultural reality so I have a greater perspective.  The greater perspective is not so I can understand what is happening better.  When we really look, we see that it is impossible to understand what is happening to us and why.  The scope of life is too vast.  My greater perspective is a deep knowing that there is SOMETHING happening even though I don’t know what it is.  I stop and catch the moment as sacred.  

It’s like being an emcee at a talent show.  I have no idea what the person on stage in front of me is going to do.  I know it is very important to them and also that it may not turn out well. So I have to be incredibly kind and loving in the face of what feels like chaos.  Chaos is lack of reason or predictability or sense.  The ego feels very unsafe and wrong in chaos.  I have to give up everything of my personal self to hold this sacred moment of life.

So what do I feel?  My soul LOVES this and my ego hates it!  My soul feels the rightness and my smaller self feels the wrongness.  How do these two sides of me come together into an experience I can offer consistently, gently, joyfully?

I see that giving up my belief in traditional cause and effect is necessary.  I know that when I stand still, make myself available to the moment and let life come through me rather than trying to cause it, something magical happens.  I become part of a bigger circle than just my own life.

We can give up having to be the cause of everything in our lives and allow what wants to happen to come through us as effect, effect, effect.  The cause is happening somewhere, but it is not nearby.  At first this is disorienting.  But when we allow ourselves to be part of this larger system, beyond what we know, magic happens.  It is not really magic – there are rules that govern the workings of the Whole – we just don’t know what the rules are and so it feels like magic – and delight.

It takes something to give up causing and to trust that the system, the Source, knows and cares. It takes something to trust that the Divine is causing a world to emerge that is beautiful and sustainable for every being on the planet – a web more brilliant than anything we can imagine.  We are each invited to participate in the creation of this world.  If we can give up, trust and be available, what a privilege to be a partner in birthing this shining new world!